I have been meditating alot lately on what it means to truly trust God as our Jehovah-Jireh, the Lord who provides. As I sit here trying to write letters and brainstorming what kind of networks of support I have, I know this whole process is teaching me about a new level of trust and submission to God's will for my life. Misty Edwards, a powerful worshipper from the International House of Prayer in Kansas City, wrote a song that I have been playing over and over again the past few weeks. The chorus says

I am in love with you, there is no loss
I am in love with you, there is no cost
I am in love with you
I want to take your name
I am in love with you
I want to cling to you, Jesus
Just let me cling to you, Jesus.

The phrase "I want to take your name" has resonated and stayed with me. What does it mean to take Jesus' name? In earthly marriage, a woman takes the last name of her husband. This symbolizes her leaving the authority and protection of her own family, and entering into covenant with her spouse. She trusts him, as their vows stated, to love, honor, protect, and provide for her. As I have prayed through this, the desire of my heart is to truly trust Jesus to do the same for me. To enter into that covenantal relationship with Him-believing that His desire is to love, honor, protect and provide for me. Paul in 1 Corinthians calls this the great mystery of Christ's love for the church. He is teaching me, through this season, how to let go and let Him be that to me. I know revelation into what this actually means in my life will not only deepen my relationship with Him, but prepare me to enter into that kind of covenant with my future spouse.

Continue to show me, Lord. I trust you.